The Sunset, The Ocean, and the Nothing Box

Posted by morynot on 03:36 AM on July 23, 2011.

I'm a sunset person. I appreciate sunsets, no matter how gloomy a day is, no matter how rain clouds cover it -- When the sun is touching the ground or is touching the infinite water at the sea, I feel relaxed, I feel at ease and without worry. Everytime the sunsets at the Manila Bay and I'm there to see it, I have a sudden feeling of rejuvenation: like life is worth 1000 times more. I know it sounds cheesy, but it really does make me feel better. 

Staring at the ocean goes the same too. Personally I opt to be alone at the breakwater everytime I go there. It's nothing to worry about though, it's not that I don't want to share it with somebody else, believe me I do, but the solemnity of the moment for me is above everything else. Besides, would anybody want to be beside me when I go into a trance? The ocean soothes me, it triggers my hard-to-get-in nothing box. 

Ahh, the Nothing Box. It's one of the things I learned from my last retreat as a student, combined with the final two episodes of the second season of Fringe and an episode of Spngebob Squarepants (This isn't a joke). Here's how I go to it: First I sit on a very comfortable chair--one that isn't sleep-inducing, but is very relaxing-- for me this would be the executive chair in my room. Second, I close my eyes and empty my mind. This part's not so easy to do, especially when there are a lot of distractions in your general vicinity, but it will be easy as soon as you think of Nothing. Yes, Nothing. Nothing at all. Think of nothing, forget everything you sense. Third, I relieve my senses of everything it percieves. I close my ears, I numb my skin, I plug my nose (imaginary, don't even think of doing this literally), and relax my tongue. The only thing you need to do is breathe. The fourth part is to feel the universe passing, coursing through my body. This is not a joke. You can actually feel this and it feels so good, like you're one with everything, but you wouls still feel like you're one among everything. Once inside the Nothing Box, I perform my calculating tasks and everything i need to think about. This is a place where all distractions are behind me, and any decision I make are made from valid, logical standpoints. 

I long for the ocean. I don't know why I talked about my Nothing Box, but it's there for you to try. 

I hope I can go to the ocean today. 

Sigh.

 

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To mky dear friend: You'll get through this. Just remember, it's high time that you fought back. I wasn't telling you to start a war; what I was telling you was to guard up and not sulk back into a hole. :) You can do this. We're all behind you.  

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