My second post for today and this is what I'm gonna say
Posted by morynot on 02:16 PM on July 31, 2011.
I need some time alone. Unfortunately.
July 31st, 2011
The good thing with the word You is that...
Posted by morynot on 01:24 PM on July 31, 2011.
This may be a bad statement to hear. In fact this may be the most childish thing you'd hear from me, but I feel this way and I don't want to hold it in too much because I fear that I might implode while doing so.
I've known you for a great deal of time now, and you are undisputedly a big part of my life. But I'm afraid that right now you're already holding me back, no matter how light your touch is on my life right now. I'm sorry but I think I've outgrown you.
Don't worry, I know as much as you do that I brought this divide upon myself.
Now, it's up to you, reader, if the word you is plural or singular.
This feels sad.
Soundtrip:
Fade Away - Sugarfree
July 23rd, 2011
The Sunset, The Ocean, and the Nothing Box
Posted by morynot on 03:36 AM on July 23, 2011.
I'm a sunset person. I appreciate sunsets, no matter how gloomy a day is, no matter how rain clouds cover it -- When the sun is touching the ground or is touching the infinite water at the sea, I feel relaxed, I feel at ease and without worry. Everytime the sunsets at the Manila Bay and I'm there to see it, I have a sudden feeling of rejuvenation: like life is worth 1000 times more. I know it sounds cheesy, but it really does make me feel better.
Staring at the ocean goes the same too. Personally I opt to be alone at the breakwater everytime I go there. It's nothing to worry about though, it's not that I don't want to share it with somebody else, believe me I do, but the solemnity of the moment for me is above everything else. Besides, would anybody want to be beside me when I go into a trance? The ocean soothes me, it triggers my hard-to-get-in nothing box.
Ahh, the Nothing Box. It's one of the things I learned from my last retreat as a student, combined with the final two episodes of the second season of Fringe and an episode of Spngebob Squarepants (This isn't a joke). Here's how I go to it: First I sit on a very comfortable chair--one that isn't sleep-inducing, but is very relaxing-- for me this would be the executive chair in my room. Second, I close my eyes and empty my mind. This part's not so easy to do, especially when there are a lot of distractions in your general vicinity, but it will be easy as soon as you think of Nothing. Yes, Nothing. Nothing at all. Think of nothing, forget everything you sense. Third, I relieve my senses of everything it percieves. I close my ears, I numb my skin, I plug my nose (imaginary, don't even think of doing this literally), and relax my tongue. The only thing you need to do is breathe. The fourth part is to feel the universe passing, coursing through my body. This is not a joke. You can actually feel this and it feels so good, like you're one with everything, but you wouls still feel like you're one among everything. Once inside the Nothing Box, I perform my calculating tasks and everything i need to think about. This is a place where all distractions are behind me, and any decision I make are made from valid, logical standpoints.
I long for the ocean. I don't know why I talked about my Nothing Box, but it's there for you to try.
I hope I can go to the ocean today.
Sigh.
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To mky dear friend: You'll get through this. Just remember, it's high time that you fought back. I wasn't telling you to start a war; what I was telling you was to guard up and not sulk back into a hole. :) You can do this. We're all behind you.
Eye Candy: 9gag
Feeling: exhausted
July 18th, 2011
Finis
Posted by morynot on 09:23 AM on July 18, 2011.
After 10 years, 8 movies, 4 directors, 3 stereotyped people and billions in dollars in production...
The Harry Potter Movie Franchise has ended.
The final music with live video, similar to the one that ended Sorcerer's Stone and Chamber of Secrets was tear-jerking, hair-raising, and heart-breaking all at the same time. The last time I felt like this was the day I finished reading the Deathly Hallows book, at 2 in the morning, after having bought the book 12 hours earlier. I have to admit, though, that the final Harry Potter movie was just epic as it is; it wasn't anything as great as I imagined it to be. The hype was too much that its epic-ness consumed the substance of the movie.
The whole movie was a big experiment in itself: it tried its best to connect disconnected details shown in the movie, for example, the Pensive that was in a pedestal in HP-Chamber of Secrets and was a floating bowl in HP-Half Blood Prince were connected when Harry threw it into the air for Snape's memories (It should've been a temple string, but for the drama of it, they went with tears. Disappointment number n). They also tried matrix-inspired freeze shots of Death-Eaters being flung back outside the castle, cinematography that wasn't Harry Potter - Compliant, and more effects.
Has anybody noticed that Grindelwald was out of the whole equation? That Dumbledore still appeared to be as high and mighty as a kite with his reputation? Arianna's mention was, as it appears, cut out by Hermione herself. Aberforth looked stupid being cut off by a kid.
It also seemed like they can't finish the Potter series without the help of Columbus and Williams. They had to return to the set -- the exact set (or replica thereof) of Sorcerer's Stone and Chamber of Secrets, and the music of John Williams to tie it all up. The result: A more binding-yet-confusing map of the Hogwarts Castle.
I open at the close.
I'm going to see this movie one more time, again to do it wrongly: look at every aspect of the movie in one screening. Nobody should do that. As one of my literature professors told me: watch a movie three times -- first, appreciate the story, second, mind the story-telling and its details, and third, watch the effects and the acting of the cast.
I'm no film critic. I'm just one of the millions who enjoyed the movies, and loved the books. The Harry Potter Movie series is 76% of what the books are worth.
July 14th, 2011
Liwanag, Panahon, Pakiramdam
Posted by morynot on 01:41 AM on July 14, 2011.
Umagang umaga, badtrip agad.
Medyo mahirap yung paulit ulit na pagpapaliwanag sa mga bagay. Lalo na kung inaasahan mong alam na 'nung pinagpapaliwanagan mo yung ipinapaliwanag mo.
Liwanag.
Ang liwanag masyado ng mundo ngayon (Literal to). Masakit sa mata. Panahon ng tag-ulan ngayon ngunit araw araw kong suot ang antiparang madilim. Ano na bang talaga ang nangyayari sa mundo? Tuluyan na bang babaligtad ang lahat ng nakagisnan ng sangkatauhan na pagkilos ng panahon?
Panahon.
Andami pang panahon para gawin ang lahat ng nais kong magawa sa tanang buhay ko. Subalit sa kabilang banda, nawala nang lahat ng panahon na dati rati ay mayroon ako. Anim na araw sa isang linggo ay naririto ako, at tuwing sabado nang gabi na lamang ako may oras para magliwaliw. Ganito pala ang pakiramdam. Bagaman nagrereklamo ako sa kawalan ng oras, hindi ko naman maikakaila na ako'y masaya sa aking trabaho at sa dala nitong mga pagsubok.
Pakiramdam.
Makiramdam ka naman sana. Kadalasan, maraming masasagot ang paggamit ng sentido comun ng isang tao. Katawa-tawa kung ikaw mismo na nagsasabing matatas ang isipan mo ay walang sentido comun. Nadadaan ang lahat ng suliranin sa pagiisip, kung hindi ka tinatamad.
"Kung ang pagiisip para sayo'y nakakangawit, ibenta mo ang utak mo kung 'di mo ginagamit."
-The Bobo Song / Gloc9
Eye Candy: aspx codes. Wow.
Feeling: annoyed